You are driven by your subconscious programming; any thought that you think repetitively sinks into your subconscious and attracts similar situations bringing happy or unhappy feelings. Meditation helps you filter your thoughts and declutter your subconscious mind. Until your subconscious is cleansed nothing changes for the better. Keep an eye on your thoughts. Let thoughts of light fill your mind and you become the moving light of love and joy.
Shuddhaanandaa Brahamchari