Confrontation of oneself in aloneness is very fearful, very painful. What to do
It is fearful and it is painful, and one has to suffer it. Nothing should be done to avoid it, nothing should be done to divert the mind, nothing should be done to escape from it. One has to suffer it and go through it. This suffering, this pain is just a good sign that you are near a new birth, because every birth is proceeded by pain. It cannot be avoided, and it should not be avoided because it is part of your growth. This pain and this suffering is known traditionally as Tapascharya, austerity. This is the mean of Tapas – arduous austerity, effort. Happyho also provides best Meditation and Tarot classes in Noida and Delhi NCR India area
But why is this pain there? This should be understood because understanding will help you to go through it, And if you go through it knowingly, you will come out of it more easily, and sooner.
Why is there pain when you are alone? The first thing is that your ego gets ill. Your ego can exists only with others. It has grown in relationships, it cannot exist alone. So if the situation is one in which it can exist no more, it feels suffocated, it feel just on the verge of death. This is the deepest suffering. You feel just as if you are dying, But it is not you who is dying but only the ego which you have taken to be yourself, with which you have become identified. It cannot exist because it has been given to you by others. It is a contribution.
When you leave others you cannot carry it with you. Think of it in this way: when you are in society, people think you are very good person. This goodness cannot exist when you are lonely and alone because this what people thought about you. Now those people are there no more. You image cannot be helped. It has become foundation less. By and By it will disappear and you will feel very bad because you were such a good person and now you are no more. And not only the good people will suffer- if you are a bad person that too was given by others to you. That too is a way of getting attention. When many people consider you bad they give you attention. They cannot be indifferent, they have to be aware of you. You are somebody, a bad man, dangerous. When you move into loneliness you become nobody. that bad image will disappear and you were feeding on it, you ego was feeding on it. So bad men and good men are not basically different – both are gaining their egos. There mediums differ, but their goals are the same.
