Unless one drops all borrowed knowledge, one cannot be wise. And the beginning of Wisdom is in being blissful. So drop all ideas of guilt – there is no need to feel guilty. You are perfectly good as you are. This is the way existence has made you; the whole responsibility is its.
Rejoice in the way you are – what else can you do? The moment you understand this, the moment you accept yourself as you are, a tremendous miracle happens: immediately you start growing because guilt disappears and cheerfulness enters your being. And in the climate of cheerfulness, growth becomes possible. Hence I say laughter is one of the most religious qualities.